Monday, June 18, 2012

My Innocent Dreams #31


-- Sara --
Thank goodness everything between S3ood & me is back to being normal. I have to thank 3azooz cause his the reason behind all this =’). The good thing is that everything got fixed in the perfect time. Since my finals are just three weeks away i really need to focus on them. I swear i wouldn’t have known what will i do if everything was still messed up. I won’t be able to focus on my exams i can never focus on my exams if there is something distracting me even if it is something really silly. I have been spending the last couple of nights out in Starbucks with Mayed. Actually i didn’t spend much time with him ,since he has been busy with uni work. He’s been so sweet to me and i simply love the way he treats me. Summer is just around the corner this year passed in a blink of an eye. Sadly i won’t be spending  it with the idiots. I can’t imagine a summer without them =). Summer without my idiots is like a summer without the sun. I’ll be spending my summer with my family only this time we will be going to Canada this summer. Since my brother A7mad wants to continue his studies there we will be going with him to check out the place. I am somehow excited and thrilled to go since its on my “Countries To Visit” list *o* !! But i know that it wont be like any other summer ,after all i will be spending it with my brothers how much i adore them \o/. Canada in a month ~o~ can’t wait to be there. I left them and went upstairs to get me a warm bubble bath after this great day. I have been thinking about Mayed all day long. Is it possible to love two great guys at the same time. I don’t even know if i love them anymore. Its too hard to think and choose between these two. I simply love both of them so much. I somehow now can’t feel the love towards Mayed anymore. Am i in denial :/ ? Its like i love them but i don’t at the same time. Weird thoughts are crossing my mind. I don’t want to leave Mayed yet i don’t think i can stay with him. But its not like i am going to even break up with him ,were are not even in a relationship. I am thinking of letting go off both of them. I need to spend sometime alone thinking about all this ,but now is definitely the wrong time since exams are on the doors. I got into my comfy grayish pj’s 
with a cute pic of grumpy from Snow White *o*. I applied some body lotion and sprayed my favorite “night” perfume Chance by Chanel *-*. I put my hair in a messy bun and wore my comfy fluffy slippers =’). I feel so happy i can feel the joy of having everything back as it use to be. I headed downstairs to find 3azooz sitting all by himself facing the tv with dim lights on ,but patently he was paying no attention to the movie which was played. He seemed to be lost in his own world not knowing whats happening around him. I sat right beside him but he was still day dreaming. Six minutes have passed by but he still didn’t notice my existence. It was extremely discreet once i closed the tv i thought that he would wake up and be back to reality but he didn’t. I started to worry about him this is so not 3azooz. Minutes after that he was finally back to reality =). 
3azooz: You’re here
Me: Yea 
3azooz: How long have you been sitting here ?
Me: Well around 15 minutes maybe
3azooz: Okay *he said while rolling his eyes*
Me: Won’t you complete watching the movie ?
3azooz: Huh ? What movie ?
Me: Umm you were watching a movie dude 
He had a straight face on. Whats gone into him :x this is freaky. How can’t he not remember that he was watching something. 
Me: Anyways do you want to watch a movie ?
3azooz: Yea why not :p but under one condition i choose the movie :D
Me: Hahaha why not 
3azooz: I wanna watch “the proposal”
Me: Woah ,3azooz wants to watch a “romantic movie” umm can i have “the 3azooz” back please ?
3azooz: Hahaha yalla 3ad bala sa5afa i wanna watch it
Me: Okay okay i am just surprise that you wanna watch it 
3azooz: I love it. I don’t mind watching it over and over again :p

I sat closer to him i was shivering from the wind. The windows were open and since the weather was really amazing. Weird s3ood was nowhere to be seen. 
Me: Have you seen S3ood ?
3azooz: No the last time i saw him was when all three of us were sitting here
Me: Ohh okay 
He got up and headed to the kitchen and within 5 minutes he was back
3azooz: What about we watch the movie when the pizza arrives ?
Me: As you like 
3azooz: Okay so i will go get some things from the patrol station and i will be back 
Me: Do you want me to accompany you ?
3azooz: Umm is it ok if i go alone ?
Me: Of course *i said with a wide smile* 
3azooz: See you in 20 minutes 
Me: Be careful 
I bet something is going on. He might be worried about something. 
I tried calling S3ood but he didn’t answer. Woah what on earth is wrong with them. I headed back to my room to grab a book and started reading till one of them is back. Half an hour later S3ood enters my room with a smile drawn on his face. He’s face brightens whenever he puts on his charming smile ♥.♥
We apologized once again about everything and how about his attitude towards me in the past days. I had to forgive him and forget it about it. We sat in the balcony under the serene weather. The cold breeze sent a shiver to my spine *-*
We kept remembering our insane moments  ,such amazing memories to be remembered and talked about ♥..  
Me: I miss every single moment =’) 
S3ood: Such great days .. i really miss these days
Me: We were so crazy back then 
S3ood: As if we aren’t now 

We both started laughing =)) by then 3azooz interrupted our conversation. 
3azooz: Dinner is ready x)
We headed downstairs to find pizza boxes and some chinese dishes and some junk placed in the living room in front of the tv. The movies was on and as soon as we sat we played them movie while having dinner. 3azooz was so into the movie =)) is he planning on proposing to someone =). I giggled at that thought and they both starred at me as in shut up x). I couldn’t stop laughing so i left the living room and ran to the kitchen xD. I grabbed us some drinks and went back to my place. I couldn’t watch the movie properly i just couldn’t stop looking at their face expressions and reactions they were simply epic =)). We then played another romantic movie “When in Rome”. I don’t know whats gone into 3azooz whats with all the “romantic” movies tonight ? 
“Are you thinking of getting married” I whispered to 3azooz. 
3azooz: Someone needs a slap here. *he said while looking at S3ood* =))
His expression was PRICELESS =)). I might die from laughter this day was just getting better and better by 3azooz’s presence. We watched another romantic movie as well =)). Three romantic movies in a row !! Oh god i think 3azooz is madly in love :o. The funny part is that he gets so mad when things don’t go as he wants and he starts arguing with us. I just couldn’t stop laughing at his facial  expressions. He had the weirdest expressions yet the funniest. The time flied by so fast it was 11 p.m here. I then went and sat in the balcony reading my story ,after around half an hour they both came holding cups in their hands. We sat there sipping our hot chocolate and starring at the clear sky that was infested with countless dazzling stars. We talked and talked till we got tired it was getting really late 3 hours have passed by like a blink of an eye. 

To Be Continued ... 

Saturday, June 16, 2012

My Innocent Dreams #30


-- S3ood --
It was a very exhausting day at uni ,so i decided to head back home instead of completing the rest of my classes. I was extremely exhausted i just wanted to throw myself on my comfy bed. As i entered the house i heard noises which was coming from the tv. I went closer to find 3azooz laying on one the sofas watching television. I was aghast to find this creature here i was so happy to find him here. 
I cleared my throat: E77m e7m 
3azooz: Tawa nas laish yait ba3ad?
Me: Haahhaha why didn’t you tell me that you’re coming? Does Sara know that you’re here ?
3azooz: No ,didn’t tell her :p *wow Sara =)) ? Since when does he call her Sara ? Seems like they have fought*
Me: and why is that ?
--3azooz-- 
I've been so exhausted that I fell asleep while waiting for one of them to arrive the house. I've missed them so much its so not cool being away from these crazy creatures. Oh ,how much I've missed our long endless walks in the street of Zurich. So s3ood arrived after almost two hours of my arrival ,he woke me up oh how much I hated him at that moment ! I stood there with a blank face and him hugging me :| I was dizzy and he was hyper :). He started poking my cheeks and playing with them the joy (:. Hahahaha I did the only thing that annoys him the most I pulled his hair in return I felt so happy \o/. He seemed disturbed later on ,but he tried not to show it so he was changing the subject since he knew I would ask him. He looked desperate yet lost that's all I could say. I wish I never left and instead changed my whole plan for thus course at the very least. I missed Saroo so much and I really missed our 'midnight talks'. He eventually told me everything and he started to say how he felt and so on. Oh god seems like I missed lots of stuff and I bet Saroo needed the 'midnight talk' in the couple of past days . I felt so bad for leaving these two alone i thought of dropping this course but it's too late my finals are in a month. I hoped that nothing is going to happen till then. Sara eventually arrived back home it was 3 in the afternoon and all three of us were starving we decided to head out for lunch. The funny thing was that they were both angry and mad at each other and s3ood thinks that Saroo called me and Sara thinks that s3ood complained to me =)) they're such idiots !!
I'm so glad I will be spending my weekend with them. Only if Hanood could join us too :').
-- Sara -- 
I was done with most of my classes had a couple more ,but i was so distracted i couldn’t complete my day at uni. I felt dead tired well when i arrived back home i heard noises it was somehow weird ,since S3ood doesn’t really spend his time downstairs specially at noon. I was shocked to find 3azooz home \=D/ i suddenly felt that i am not exhausted anymore although i had a long tiring day at uni. Seeing his face is more than enough. I gave him the tightest-longest hug ever ,and S3ood just stood there looking at me angrily. Hahahahaha he got jealous it was so patent his eyes can’t lie =)). *Sigh* 
Me: So 3azooz how are things there ?
3azooz: Everything is good ,but it would be amazing if we were all still in the same place. *He sighed* 
Me: Aww 7abeeby 3azooz ,so do you like it there ?
3azooz: Yea Geneva is amazing. 
Me: So what got you here ?
3azooz: Ohh so you guys don’t want me :o ?
I started laughing: Nooo of course i do but i mean don’t you have uni to attend ?
3azooz: No ,i don’t
Me: Ohmygod how much i’ve missed you =’) 
3azooz: That’s why i’m here 
Me: Aaaa 3azooz i love you <3 
3azooz: Hahaha Saroo i know you do *he winked* i love you too sweetheart <3
was that they were both angry and mad at each other and s3ood thinks that Saroo called me and Sara thinks that s3ood complained to me =)) they're such idiots !!
I'm so glad I will be spending my weekend with them. Only if Hanood could join us too :').
-- Sara -- 
I was done with most of my classes had a couple more ,but i was so distracted i couldn’t complete my day at uni. I felt dead tired well when i arrived back home i heard noises it was somehow weird ,since S3ood doesn’t really spend his time downstairs specially at noon. I was shocked to find 3azooz home \=D/ i suddenly felt that i am not exhausted anymore although i had a long tiring day at uni. Seeing his face is more than enough. I gave him the tightest-longest hug ever ,and S3ood just stood there looking at me angrily. Hahahahaha he got jealous it was so patent his eyes can’t lie =)). *Sigh* 
Me: So 3azooz how are things there ?
3azooz: Everything is good ,but it would be amazing if we were all still in the same place. *He sighed* 
Me: Aww 7abeeby 3azooz ,so do you like it there ?
3azooz: Yea Geneva is amazing. 
Me: So what got you here ?
3azooz: Ohh so you guys don’t want me :o ?
I started laughing: Nooo of course i do but i mean don’t you have uni to attend ?
3azooz: No ,i don’t
Me: Ohmygod how much i’ve missed you =’) 
3azooz: That’s why i’m here 
Me: Aaaa 3azooz i love you <3 
3azooz: Hahaha Saroo i know you do *he winked* i love you too sweetheart <3
Specially that ,that “creature” isn’t talking to me, Do you know now why i have been coming soo late to the house ?



You made my past weeks like hell. It was as if i had to pretend that you don’t exist and i should avoid even asking you any questions. It was as if i was staying with a whole stranger under one roof.
Me: Saaraa ..
Sara: What s3ood ?
Me: Can we open a new page ?
Sara: And pretend as of the past weeks never happened ?
Me: Umm yea ?
Sara: Well it’s so hard to pretend as if these days haven’t passed ,deep down i’m hurt. I hope you know how it feels like =’) 

To Be Continued ... 

Friday, May 25, 2012

My Innocent Dreams #29


-- Sara -- 
I froze in my place not knowing what i should do :l he then let go and i left the house. I went to get some fresh air by the lake. I feel like there are many things going around in my head but i can’t figure out what i shall do. I feel like there’s a heavy lift on my chest. Hours have passed i was checking the time on my phone thats when i saw i had more than 20 missed calls oh god and there all from S3ood a couple of ones from 3azooz. Ohh god i wonder why did he call. 
I tried calling him back it was busy. I passed by one of the cafe’s got me a drink and sat for another while rethinking everything. 
-- 3azooz -- 
I got a phone call and patently I wasn't surprised to see that its from sara now she decides to call me after leaving her I don't know how many missed calls She told me all about it and how she feels about S3ood & the way she's loving him even more day by day her love towards is growing but she have chosen mayed cause she thought that s3ood had no feelings for her..
Sara: Its too hard 3azooz what should I do if I love both of them ? This is insane ,is it even possible to love two people at once ? 
*she said desperately* 
Me: Saroo 7abeebty calm down and will figure it out. 
I'm not sure if I can even help you Sara maybe not this time you have to make a decision between these two crazy guys I don't personally know mayed but as much as she talks about him I feel like I already know him well. We talked for an hour and then she closed. 
I kept thinking about what she have said I'm starting to wonder if its even possible to fall in love with two different people ?! 
S3ood: is she kidding me ?? 
Me: what now ? 
S3ood: she actually loves me but she doesn't admit that to me but she admits it to you ? La walla ? Ohh god please tell me that you're kidding me ! What should I do to this girl :/ 
Me: oh please don't tell me thats she's driving you insane
S3ood: did you know that she was planning on leaving the house ? 
Me: LOL yea didn't you hear her ?
Btw was she even serious about it ? 
I can't imagine Sara saying such a thing isn't this what she wants ? To be with him ?! 
S3ood: Yess she was very very serious she wasn't kidding about it ,not at all :/ Me: Weird :S why do you think does she want to leave ? Have she said anything about it to you ?
S3ood: Why didn't she tell you from the very beginning that she doesn't want to stay with me ?
Me: S3oood w ba3dain ?!!! 
S3ood: Shu ba3dain tara'ha etgolk kl shay, yat 3ala hal salf'h ? Walla ._.
Me: ufff mnk S3ood ,sometimes you keep complaining like a four years old 
S3ood: Fine 3azooz fine i will stop complaining ,yalla salam
Me: What the ? S3ood stop all this whats wrong now ?
S3ood: Never mind me i will talk to Hanood instead she might understand me and LIISTEEEEN
My my it was so patent when he stressed on LISTEN. 
S3ood: Bye 
Me: Fine bye ...
Tomorrow is Saturday so i don’t really have lots of classes and the day isn’t over yet. I got a phone a call ..
Me: Heyy 
Daniel: Hi ,how you doin’?
Me: Im good thanks what about you?
D: Same here ,anyways i wanted to let you know that we are having a party tonight since there are no classes tomorrow
Me: Are you sure cause today is Friday & tomorrow is Saturday and not Sunday
D: Yea didn’t you receive the message saying that the professors of the department won’t be there since they have a conference so its a day off. 
Me: Ohhhh 
I immediately took a taxi and headed to the train station. 
-- Hanood --
I was on the phone with Saroo she told me everything that happened.. & S3ood i don’t know whats wrong with him. I seriously am shocked :O 
Seems like its really bad to leave these two under one roof 
S3ood has definitely gone insane but how cute is that ?! Hahaha i love the way he thinks =)) 
-- 3azooz -- 
I had to get back to Zurich its either now or never. He’s gone insane and i really feel bad for Sara. I kept thinking incessantly about what am i gonna be able to do. S3ood is so stubborn and i know that he won’t listen to anyone. Time passed by so fast and i have reached my destination. It feels good to be back to Zurich although its just been a couple of weeks. 
I went to the house to find no one .__.

To Be Continued ... 

Sunday, May 13, 2012

My Innocent Dreams #28


-- Hanood -- 
Weeks have passed by and i was missing the guys already only three weeks have passed ,but i still miss them. It wasn’t as i expected it somehow went well. Everything there was good made some friends ,some were from my ex-university. I was able to get along with them i am staying at the dorms for a while i am thinking of staying there for the rest of the semester. The atmosphere here isn’t as fun as it was back in Zurich with my idiots <3. 
-- 3azooz -- 
It was time for me to pack up my things and leave ,but the was a problem. I didn’t  want to leave UZH. I didn’t want to leave my friends ,i can’t leave the two idiots alone. Its getting really hard. I was standing by gate 4 waving at both S3ood & Sara. Although i wasn’t going to a far place i felt sad this might sound really weird and crazy, they say a strong man doesn’t cry. To be honest a tear escaped my eyes and this was the second time the first one was when Hanood left us standing in the train station and this is my second time. I got so use to everything here i mean there’s just one more semester why can’t they postpone whatever that is till the next year. I don’t wanna leave !!
I finally reached my destination i didn’t know if i should be happy or disconsolate
:( ! I am officially in Geneva well its one of my favorite cities ,so it can’t be really bad could it :/ ? I headed to the hotel start away it was so windy and the weather wasn’t helping at all there’s heavy rain ,lightning ,and the wind is freaky. 
I finally checked in and headed to my room start away i took a warm shower got dressed and went headed back downstairs to the lobby. I asked them about any coffee shop ,but the weather didn’t really help so i just went to the cafe thats in the hotel which is located on the 20th floor. It was getting too late so i headed back to my room changed into my pj and then drifted off. 
-- S3ood --
The house feels so empty ,__, this is so weird i can’t get used to this. Well lets keep everything for the time. I just can’t stop thinking about her what will happen ? I can’t do this anymore i might go insane if the two of us are staying at the same house and not being able to be beside each other .. 
Sara came into my room interrupting my thoughts .. 
Sara: You busy ?
Me: Nope 
Sara: Umm S3ood :l 
She stayed silent for a couple of minutes.
Me: I’m listening .. Hello *waving my hands in front of her face* i said i’m listening. 
Seems like someone is daydreaming .. Let me try once more.
Me: Saraa !! 
Sara: Yea
Me: Whats wrong ?
Sara: You scared me :/
Me: Uhh whatever now whats going on ?
Sara: Umm i’ve been thinking before 3azooz leaving that i will be moving out when he does..
I interrupted her: No waaay you’re not going anywhere ,if there is someone that has to move out then thats going to be me understood ?
Sara: S3ood please sit down & calm down
Me: You want me to calm down ? After what i heard v,v
Sara: Umm yea i guess :/
She got up from my bed ,but i couldn’t let her just go like that i held her wrist tightly.
Me: Don’t leave me ,don’t just don’t please
Sara: S3ood please
Me: No Sara listen to me ! I have left you to choose between mayed & me but this time you’re not going anywhere. Is it possible that you can’t stand me anymore ? What have i done to you ? My fault is that i am madly in love with you ! Now tell me what shall i do ?
I threw all these words at her and walked out of the room. I got so mad at her i couldn’t help it but i had to say it all and if i didn’t i don’t know what would have happened if i didn’t say what was in my heart. 
-- Sara -- 
No way that person is S3ood. Am i dreaming or what ? I couldn’t believe what he said. Although he’s madly in love with me he left me choose mayed & he knew it all along. I need to get out of here asap. I grabbed my phone and purse and left downstairs .
I saw him sitting on the couch and he had his hands on his face. I cleared my throat in order for him to know that i’m here.
-- S3ood --
I ran downstairs not knowing what i just said this was really hard to say but it eventually came out. I waited for a couple of minutes but she didn’t come down. 
Another couple of minutes later i felt like someone standing by my side & of course its her ,who else will it be ?! I kinda panicked i don’t wanna talk at this very moment. I feel terrible somehow. 
Sara: S3ood..
Ahh the way my name comes out from her soft voice is to die for.. Only if you know what you have done to Ms.Sara .__.
Me: Hmm 
Sara: Ana 6al3h 
And she turned the other way. Is she kidding me ? She just came to tell that she’s leaving :l
I help her arm softly this time and pulled her closer to me i couldn’t i hugged her so damn tightly and whispered the 3 words ...
“I LOVE YOU” .. I said 
I don’t care even if she’s with Mayed i don’t give a damn i love her and thats all i care about and if she doesn’t say these 3 words back now someday she will ;) 

To Be Continued ... 

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

My Innocent Dreams #27


--3azooz--
I went back home chilled a bit on font of the tv. To my surprise no one was home yet. I wonder I'd they got a letter or something similar !! I was exhausted so I fell asleep on the couch. 
I felt like someone covered me and at thy moment I woke up I looked at the time it was 3 already I ran upstairs freshened up changed my clothes and went downstairs to see all three sitting down do I thought I could ask them since we are all gathered.
Me: e7m 
S3ood: Halla walla waink int'h ? 
Me: mawjood ,el mohm were any of you guys asked to go to the principals office today ? 
Sara: oh please don't tell me that you were in trouble v_v
I laughed
Me: who me ? In trouble ? Pftt I do trouble ;) but I don't get involved.  
I laughed evilly
S3ood: Hahahhaay 3ad hatha 3azooz Saroo latnsein ;) 
Sara: Hahahahaha oh nsait    
Hanood: Nah the topic isn't abt that at all 
Sara: okay what is it about then ? 
Me: well I received a letter today saying that I need to sent to another department which isn't in Zurich but I will still be here is Swiss :/ 
I was so worried from their reaction. 
Sara stood up in a shock saying: and what did u say ?
Me: well I asked Mr. A if I can still to to any department here in Zurich but he said its not possible and he said if u don't want to go then u have to change ur major bla bla. 
S3ood: No way !! Meaning you're leaving us :o 
Hanood: Same here *she said with an 
emotional less face*

Sara: Are you guys serious ?! S3ood don't tell me that you're even leaving ?! 
S3ood: a9lan Ana maknt adri lain ma 3azooz gal /: 
Sara: Walla 7aram 3alikom *she said with a frown*.
S3ood: So have when will you guys be leaving ?
Me: By next month inshallah.
Sara: Weeh i thought next week or something at least we can spend some more time together. 
Hanood: Yea about that i have to go by this weekend *she said feeling disconsolate* 
Sara: No wayy you cant be serious ! ‘
Hind: Despairingly i am :/ 
Okay now seriously Saroo shway w bat9eey7 i swear this is epic =)) her face expressions are hilarious...  
I can’t believe that i will have to leave them and go to any other city in the country it feels so wrong. I can’t leave all of a sudden. We need to be there for each other  okay if we were back in Dbai okay that we totally be different but we came here to be together not be separated from one another. Now lets hope that everything goes well this upcoming month i wanna go crazy these couple of weeks. All i can think about right now is how will i survive there ? No friends ? I don’t know anyone ? Lonely much ? I need to know if any of the students that are with me in the class are being transferred to the same place. At least if some are now i at least know someone. I don’t wanna leave but there is no other choice at least this city is 5 hours away from Zurich i can come by the train like almost each weekend spend it here in Zurich and go back :D or take a plane and come at least this i solved but what about the other things ? Where will i stay ? When should i tell my parents about all this :S ? I am absolutely confused. And what about Hanood ? I wont be able to see her every single day ! and S3ood el maynon who’s gonna torture me & annoy me there ? And who will go to so that i could listen to there life problems & what they are going through uhh Sara i am gonna mis your stories about u & mayed & s3ood =(. Can’t i just kidnap the O:) hahha that will be great kidnapping my friends to the place that i am going to =)).

What if i can kidnap them that would be epic. Oh and i wont give them any food or water i will close their eyes and tie their hands (6) hahaha this is so much fun but i am gonna need a van ,a driver ,something to threaten them with =)). S3ood interrupted my evil thoughts by pulling me to the garden. 
S3ood: Hello hello *he said while waving with his hands in front of my face*.
I ignored him still wondering in my la la land ,and suddenly he surprises me by pinching me v.v
Me: S3ood ma7bbk. 
S3ood: Aww 7abeeby amoot feek. ‘
and start acting stupidly tara mol mb wagt’h i was planning everything and in a sec he ruins everything uff mnk ,uff S3ood. LOL i just realized that they were all sitting outside in the lovely weather and i was all alone inside.
Hanood: Laish eta5art mn mta e7na hni :/
Me: Ha ,oh la mashay bas knt sr7an shway.. 
Hahahaha only if they knew what was i thinking of =))) !!! 
Days have passed and the weekend came by it was Hanood’s time to leave.. 
She took the train to the other city. Mama mia its hard to see someone you love leave that way ohh my i feel bad for the idiots that are with me here. I am so gonna miss these three like so badly how can i ? But the good thing is after 2 months from now our summer vacation starts and we are so spending it together. 
Looks like i have two tough months ahead of me oh well what to do ..?
-- Sara -- 
Since hanood left and 3azooz is leaving as well i thought of moving out ,but at the same time i don’t wanna leave s3ood alone and i don’t wanna be alone. I kind find it really weird if its gonna be only the two of us under one roof ,since neither 3azooz or hanood will be around at the time ...
-- S3ood -- 
I wonder what will happen after 3azooz leaving .. who i be having my “talks” with v.v 3azooz please don’t leave us. A7ein hanood bas left the house feels so drab and discreet .-. i wonder if sara will even stay here with me .. 8-l

To be continued ...