-- Hanood --
The last two months have been so hectic uni is so exhausting this is just the first year :) Allah y3eena. This so hard being away from the family and away from my best friends is so hard. There's no one here to share things with. I wish Saro was here at least. I've missed them so much :( I wanna go back to Zurich so badly ='). I've no one here but there are a couple of Arabs. There is a group which consists of around 15 people boys & girls. Some are locals and some are from Kuwait ,Bahrain ,& G6aar ('=. I made some friends ,but no one can ever take my idiots place. They've a special place in my heart which no one can ever take over. There are such cuties and hotties here ♥_♥ and there is this dude named Mohammed from Kuwait ahh he's to die for :$.
I need to clear my mind asap. I’ve been losing control these days specially when i am around Mayed i feel like he has changed. There’s something weird about him. I haven’t seen him much lately but i have a feeling that he is hiding something from me. I got a feeling that whatever he is hiding from me ,is something big.
Weeks have passed by and i haven’t seen or talked to Sara. Our summer vacation started a few days ago and now i’m back in Dubai. I have been going through a hard time in the past 2 months therefor i wasn’t able to spend much time with Sara. Ever since i came back to Dubai i headed straight away from the airport to our house that’s in Palm Jumeirah. I am trying my best to avoid the whole family ,since i know once they see me they will start questioning me about when am i planning to get married to my cousin. In case you’re wondering i’m engaged to my first cousin from my father’s side ,but nothing is official until now. I’m absolutely against this whole idea i’ve never liked Reem (my cousin) i mean i never thought that i would ever ever like her or even get married to her !! Oh come on. I don’t want to be forced into a marriage that i don’t want to happen. Plus i’m not planning on getting married not now at least ,but sooner or later i’ll maybe after 3 years i will get married but definitely not to Reem. I love Sara not Reem !! But non of my parents will understand that cause they’re way to stubborn to listen to what i have to say. I still don’t get what’s the point behind forcing me into this marriage. Why don’t they force one of my elder brothers or even my other cousins ? They’re way mature then i am ,and they are absolutely ready to build a family of their own but i am not ready for any of this. My thoughts were scattered all over the floor. I felt like there was a knife placed between my chest. I can’t let them control me. I can’t let them do what they want to me. If I do what they want then that will show them that i’m so weak ,but i won’t let them see that side of me. I won’t allow them to see the “weak Mayed” ,and i won’t get married to Reem ,never ! I never even thought of her in that way i never liked in her or even had a crush on her i like just the way that i like my other girl cousins. They’re forcing me to hate everyone and everything that around me. It’s my life and my choice and not theirs ,but seems like they will die if they don’t poke their nose into my business. They made my life seem like hell. They don’t know how i’m feeling at the moment. They’re ruining my life without knowing that they’re doing so ! God help me.
I can’t wait for this summer vacation to be over. For some reason this vacation might not be one of the best ones since we won’t or should i say since i won’t spend it by Sara’s side. I miss her like crazy yes she’s that special. She means the world to me. I want this vacation to pass by so fast so badly. So the guys have decided to spend this summer vacation in Seoul,Korea actually we were planning on going to Maldives but since Sara isn’t joining us this summer we postponed it till our winter break. Our flight to Dubai is within three days so we have to start packing. Hind is coming back to Zurich tonight and 3azooz said that he wants to go pick her up from the train station since she’s taking the train. Oh and guess what the mister wants to go all by himself and pick her up. Did he forget that i’m her friend as well or what ! I wanna go back to Dubai like today !! I really missed home and my parents and i missed my siblings thats for sure can’t wait to see them.
Gosh S3ood is such an annoying friend he won’t let me go by myself what if i wanna tell her something and i don’t want him there 3-l. So i decided to go out for a walk under this breathtaking weather and the sky is simply AHH-MAZING today oh and the annoying friend of mine decided to tag along saying that he doesn’t want to stay all by himself daloo3 -_-. He was talking non stop i got a headache cause of him. I don;t know what is he trying to do but i might just walk away and leave him all by himself. I don’t know whats his problem. I wonder what did he have for breakfast ,a radio maybe ?! I’ve got no idea why am i so pissed and annoyed at the moment and apparently i can’t stand anyone.
S3ood: Wooah why so annoyed ? 7abeebat el galb yaya elyoum u should be happy
Me: I don’t know
S3ood: Hey what about we stop by any cafe or restaurant
Me: Ok fine
To Be Continued ...
