My Innocent Dreams #29

-- Sara -- 

I froze in my place not knowing what i should do :l he then let go and i left the house. I went to get some fresh air by the lake. I feel like there are many things going around in my head but i can’t figure out what i shall do. I feel like there’s a heavy lift on my chest. Hours have passed i was checking the time on my phone thats when i saw i had more than 20 missed calls oh god and there all from S3ood a couple of ones from 3azooz. Ohh god i wonder why did he call. 

I tried calling him back it was busy. I passed by one of the cafe’s got me a drink and sat for another while rethinking everything. 

-- 3azooz -- 

I got a phone call and patently I wasn't surprised to see that its from sara now she decides to call me after leaving her I don't know how many missed calls She told me all about it and how she feels about S3ood & the way she's loving him even more day by day her love towards is growing but she have chosen mayed cause she thought that s3ood had no feelings for her..

Sara: Its too hard 3azooz what should I do if I love both of them ? This is insane ,is it even possible to love two people at once ? 

*she said desperately* 

Me: Saroo 7abeebty calm down and will figure it out. 

I'm not sure if I can even help you Sara maybe not this time you have to make a decision between these two crazy guys I don't personally know mayed but as much as she talks about him I feel like I already know him well. We talked for an hour and then she closed. 

I kept thinking about what she have said I'm starting to wonder if its even possible to fall in love with two different people ?! 

S3ood: is she kidding me ?? 

Me: what now ? 

S3ood: she actually loves me but she doesn't admit that to me but she admits it to you ? La walla ? Ohh god please tell me that you're kidding me ! What should I do to this girl :/ 

Me: oh please don't tell me thats she's driving you insane

S3ood: did you know that she was planning on leaving the house ? 

Me: LOL yea didn't you hear her ?

Btw was she even serious about it ? 

I can't imagine Sara saying such a thing isn't this what she wants ? To be with him ?! 

S3ood: Yess she was very very serious she wasn't kidding about it ,not at all :/ Me: Weird :S why do you think does she want to leave ? Have she said anything about it to you ?

S3ood: Why didn't she tell you from the very beginning that she doesn't want to stay with me ?

Me: S3oood w ba3dain ?!!! 

S3ood: Shu ba3dain tara'ha etgolk kl shay, yat 3ala hal salf'h ? Walla ._.

Me: ufff mnk S3ood ,sometimes you keep complaining like a four years old 

S3ood: Fine 3azooz fine i will stop complaining ,yalla salam

Me: What the ? S3ood stop all this whats wrong now ?

S3ood: Never mind me i will talk to Hanood instead she might understand me and LIISTEEEEN

My my it was so patent when he stressed on LISTEN. 

S3ood: Bye 

Me: Fine bye ...

Tomorrow is Saturday so i don’t really have lots of classes and the day isn’t over yet. I got a phone a call ..

Me: Heyy 

Daniel: Hi ,how you doin’?

Me: Im good thanks what about you?

D: Same here ,anyways i wanted to let you know that we are having a party tonight since there are no classes tomorrow

Me: Are you sure cause today is Friday & tomorrow is Saturday and not Sunday

D: Yea didn’t you receive the message saying that the professors of the department won’t be there since they have a conference so its a day off. 

Me: Ohhhh 

I immediately took a taxi and headed to the train station. 

-- Hanood --

I was on the phone with Saroo she told me everything that happened.. & S3ood i don’t know whats wrong with him. I seriously am shocked :O 

Seems like its really bad to leave these two under one roof 

S3ood has definitely gone insane but how cute is that ?! Hahaha i love the way he thinks =)) 

-- 3azooz -- 

I had to get back to Zurich its either now or never. He’s gone insane and i really feel bad for Sara. I kept thinking incessantly about what am i gonna be able to do. S3ood is so stubborn and i know that he won’t listen to anyone. Time passed by so fast and i have reached my destination. It feels good to be back to Zurich although its just been a couple of weeks. 

I went to the house to find no one .__.

To Be Continued ... 

My Innocent Dreams #28

-- Hanood -- 

Weeks have passed by and i was missing the guys already only three weeks have passed ,but i still miss them. It wasn’t as i expected it somehow went well. Everything there was good made some friends ,some were from my ex-university. I was able to get along with them i am staying at the dorms for a while i am thinking of staying there for the rest of the semester. The atmosphere here isn’t as fun as it was back in Zurich with my idiots <3. 

-- 3azooz -- 

It was time for me to pack up my things and leave ,but the was a problem. I didn’t  want to leave UZH. I didn’t want to leave my friends ,i can’t leave the two idiots alone. Its getting really hard. I was standing by gate 4 waving at both S3ood & Sara. Although i wasn’t going to a far place i felt sad this might sound really weird and crazy, they say a strong man doesn’t cry. To be honest a tear escaped my eyes and this was the second time the first one was when Hanood left us standing in the train station and this is my second time. I got so use to everything here i mean there’s just one more semester why can’t they postpone whatever that is till the next year. I don’t wanna leave !!

I finally reached my destination i didn’t know if i should be happy or disconsolate

:( ! I am officially in Geneva well its one of my favorite cities ,so it can’t be really bad could it :/ ? I headed to the hotel start away it was so windy and the weather wasn’t helping at all there’s heavy rain ,lightning ,and the wind is freaky. 

I finally checked in and headed to my room start away i took a warm shower got dressed and went headed back downstairs to the lobby. I asked them about any coffee shop ,but the weather didn’t really help so i just went to the cafe thats in the hotel which is located on the 20th floor. It was getting too late so i headed back to my room changed into my pj and then drifted off. 

-- S3ood --

The house feels so empty ,__, this is so weird i can’t get used to this. Well lets keep everything for the time. I just can’t stop thinking about her what will happen ? I can’t do this anymore i might go insane if the two of us are staying at the same house and not being able to be beside each other .. 

Sara came into my room interrupting my thoughts .. 

Sara: You busy ?

Me: Nope 

Sara: Umm S3ood :l 

She stayed silent for a couple of minutes.

Me: I’m listening .. Hello *waving my hands in front of her face* i said i’m listening. 

Seems like someone is daydreaming .. Let me try once more.

Me: Saraa !! 

Sara: Yea

Me: Whats wrong ?

Sara: You scared me :/

Me: Uhh whatever now whats going on ?

Sara: Umm i’ve been thinking before 3azooz leaving that i will be moving out when he does..

I interrupted her: No waaay you’re not going anywhere ,if there is someone that has to move out then thats going to be me understood ?

Sara: S3ood please sit down & calm down

Me: You want me to calm down ? After what i heard v,v

Sara: Umm yea i guess :/

She got up from my bed ,but i couldn’t let her just go like that i held her wrist tightly.

Me: Don’t leave me ,don’t just don’t please

Sara: S3ood please

Me: No Sara listen to me ! I have left you to choose between mayed & me but this time you’re not going anywhere. Is it possible that you can’t stand me anymore ? What have i done to you ? My fault is that i am madly in love with you ! Now tell me what shall i do ?

I threw all these words at her and walked out of the room. I got so mad at her i couldn’t help it but i had to say it all and if i didn’t i don’t know what would have happened if i didn’t say what was in my heart. 

-- Sara -- 

No way that person is S3ood. Am i dreaming or what ? I couldn’t believe what he said. Although he’s madly in love with me he left me choose mayed & he knew it all along. I need to get out of here asap. I grabbed my phone and purse and left downstairs .

I saw him sitting on the couch and he had his hands on his face. I cleared my throat in order for him to know that i’m here.

-- S3ood --

I ran downstairs not knowing what i just said this was really hard to say but it eventually came out. I waited for a couple of minutes but she didn’t come down. 

Another couple of minutes later i felt like someone standing by my side & of course its her ,who else will it be ?! I kinda panicked i don’t wanna talk at this very moment. I feel terrible somehow. 

Sara: S3ood..

Ahh the way my name comes out from her soft voice is to die for.. Only if you know what you have done to Ms.Sara .__.

Me: Hmm 

Sara: Ana 6al3h 

And she turned the other way. Is she kidding me ? She just came to tell that she’s leaving :l

I help her arm softly this time and pulled her closer to me i couldn’t i hugged her so damn tightly and whispered the 3 words ...

“I LOVE YOU” .. I said 

I don’t care even if she’s with Mayed i don’t give a damn i love her and thats all i care about and if she doesn’t say these 3 words back now someday she will ;) 

To Be Continued ... 

My Innocent Dreams #27

--3azooz--

I went back home chilled a bit on font of the tv. To my surprise no one was home yet. I wonder I'd they got a letter or something similar !! I was exhausted so I fell asleep on the couch. 

I felt like someone covered me and at thy moment I woke up I looked at the time it was 3 already I ran upstairs freshened up changed my clothes and went downstairs to see all three sitting down do I thought I could ask them since we are all gathered.

Me: e7m 

S3ood: Halla walla waink int'h ? 

Me: mawjood ,el mohm were any of you guys asked to go to the principals office today ? 

Sara: oh please don't tell me that you were in trouble v_v

I laughed

Me: who me ? In trouble ? Pftt I do trouble ;) but I don't get involved.  

I laughed evilly

S3ood: Hahahhaay 3ad hatha 3azooz Saroo latnsein ;) 

Sara: Hahahahaha oh nsait    

Hanood: Nah the topic isn't abt that at all 

Sara: okay what is it about then ? 

Me: well I received a letter today saying that I need to sent to another department which isn't in Zurich but I will still be here is Swiss :/ 

I was so worried from their reaction. 

Sara stood up in a shock saying: and what did u say ?

Me: well I asked Mr. A if I can still to to any department here in Zurich but he said its not possible and he said if u don't want to go then u have to change ur major bla bla. 

S3ood: No way !! Meaning you're leaving us :o 

Hanood: Same here *she said with an 

emotional less face*

Sara: Are you guys serious ?! S3ood don't tell me that you're even leaving ?! 

S3ood: a9lan Ana maknt adri lain ma 3azooz gal /: 

Sara: Walla 7aram 3alikom *she said with a frown*.

S3ood: So have when will you guys be leaving ?

Me: By next month inshallah.

Sara: Weeh i thought next week or something at least we can spend some more time together. 

Hanood: Yea about that i have to go by this weekend *she said feeling disconsolate* 

Sara: No wayy you cant be serious ! ‘

Hind: Despairingly i am :/ 

Okay now seriously Saroo shway w bat9eey7 i swear this is epic =)) her face expressions are hilarious...  

I can’t believe that i will have to leave them and go to any other city in the country it feels so wrong. I can’t leave all of a sudden. We need to be there for each other  okay if we were back in Dbai okay that we totally be different but we came here to be together not be separated from one another. Now lets hope that everything goes well this upcoming month i wanna go crazy these couple of weeks. All i can think about right now is how will i survive there ? No friends ? I don’t know anyone ? Lonely much ? I need to know if any of the students that are with me in the class are being transferred to the same place. At least if some are now i at least know someone. I don’t wanna leave but there is no other choice at least this city is 5 hours away from Zurich i can come by the train like almost each weekend spend it here in Zurich and go back :D or take a plane and come at least this i solved but what about the other things ? Where will i stay ? When should i tell my parents about all this :S ? I am absolutely confused. And what about Hanood ? I wont be able to see her every single day ! and S3ood el maynon who’s gonna torture me & annoy me there ? And who will go to so that i could listen to there life problems & what they are going through uhh Sara i am gonna mis your stories about u & mayed & s3ood =(. Can’t i just kidnap the O:) hahha that will be great kidnapping my friends to the place that i am going to =)).

What if i can kidnap them that would be epic. Oh and i wont give them any food or water i will close their eyes and tie their hands (6) hahaha this is so much fun but i am gonna need a van ,a driver ,something to threaten them with =)). S3ood interrupted my evil thoughts by pulling me to the garden. 

S3ood: Hello hello *he said while waving with his hands in front of my face*.

I ignored him still wondering in my la la land ,and suddenly he surprises me by pinching me v.v

Me: S3ood ma7bbk. 

S3ood: Aww 7abeeby amoot feek. ‘

and start acting stupidly tara mol mb wagt’h i was planning everything and in a sec he ruins everything uff mnk ,uff S3ood. LOL i just realized that they were all sitting outside in the lovely weather and i was all alone inside.

Hanood: Laish eta5art mn mta e7na hni :/

Me: Ha ,oh la mashay bas knt sr7an shway.. 

Hahahaha only if they knew what was i thinking of =))) !!! 

Days have passed and the weekend came by it was Hanood’s time to leave.. 

She took the train to the other city. Mama mia its hard to see someone you love leave that way ohh my i feel bad for the idiots that are with me here. I am so gonna miss these three like so badly how can i ? But the good thing is after 2 months from now our summer vacation starts and we are so spending it together. 

Looks like i have two tough months ahead of me oh well what to do ..?

-- Sara -- 

Since hanood left and 3azooz is leaving as well i thought of moving out ,but at the same time i don’t wanna leave s3ood alone and i don’t wanna be alone. I kind find it really weird if its gonna be only the two of us under one roof ,since neither 3azooz or hanood will be around at the time ...

-- S3ood -- 

I wonder what will happen after 3azooz leaving .. who i be having my “talks” with v.v 3azooz please don’t leave us. A7ein hanood bas left the house feels so drab and discreet .-. i wonder if sara will even stay here with me .. 8-l

To be continued ...